Its been awhile since I last blogged. I took the holidays off. I trust that you had a beautiful time with friends and family over the holidays. I had a good time. When it comes to holidays it's a process with me emotionally. I'm not used to allot of the family flare and sentiment. The great thing about this Christmas was that I spent it with my personal family: my wife and two children. We stood home and enjoyed each others company.  I remember in my addiction and past choice of lifestyle that I would always sabotage the holidays. I would do something to ruin it for those around me. I would put myself in a position that would somehow excuse my presence... that's what I thought at least. I didn't realize that the choices I made effected those around me also. Well! Glad to say it was a good one. For this year of 2013 my goals are to stay focused on those things that are most important to me.... Friends, family, and relationships. My recovery and sobriety and the ever present need to keep moving forward. I approach these expectations realistically now. Before I used to set myself up for failure and aim for perfection then when perfection was lost so was my resolve. Now I understand that there is no such thing as a perfect person... only their intentions. I understand that I may fall and slip or even slide from what I aim to accomplish, but if I keep my eyes on the prize and pick myself up and move towards the mark everything will eventually work itself out....( easier said than done I know!) Well, until tomorrow comes have a great day....